The last several weeks have been very difficult at work. More than I enjoy or desire. And I like to work. I count myself as one of the very fortunate to have experienced this phenomenon.
Find something you love to do, and you’ll never have to work a day in your life.
In a conversation about whether we will be successful in this work project, I said that if I get fired because we fail… I will be fine about it; because I have put everything I have into the effort. I left nothing in reserve. Termination of employment would not be because I didn’t, it would be because I couldn’t.
Even so, I see no other path to take than the one I am on.
When you ask me, ‘Why do you always insist on taking the hard road?’, I reply ‘Why do you assume I see two roads?’
I cannot say why this is so; I just don’t see two roads. It has always been that way for me. Seeing only one option makes for simple (and perhaps foolish) choices. There is no choice at all but to run for that road, full tilt. For better or worse, that is the way it is for me.
In Matthew 26:34-35 we read Jesus’ prediction of Peter denying Jesus, and Peter’s insistence that he would die first. I imagine Peter only sees one road.
‘Jesus said to him, “Truly, I tell you, this very night, before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.” Peter said to him, “Even if I must die with you, I will not deny you!” And all the disciples said the same.’ Matthew 26:34-35 ESV
Verses 69-75 of the same chapter in Matthew records Peter fulfilling the words of Jesus. Then weeping bitterly. As Yoda would say, the regret is strong with this one.
Can I point out that Peter is first to respond… then the others followed? Even after seeing Peter is so often wrong in his brash statements and impetuous choices. This is the man that moments later cut off a soldier’s ear. He jumps out of a boat in deep water when he saw Jesus, has just declared loyalty even to the death, and seems to have no reservations about making a fool of himself. He is the Labrador Retriever of disciples… eager to be in the middle of it all yet often makes a mess of the situation. Either he was incredibly fun to be around, or incredibly frustrating. Perhaps both.
Passion: intense, driving, or overmastering feeling or conviction; an outbreak of anger; a strong liking or desire for or devotion to.
Lack of passion was not a problem for Peter. Lack of decorum? Lack of foresight? Lack of manners? Check, check, check. But there is no absence of passion in Peter. I must wonder if this is one of the reasons why Jesus declared Peter to be the rock on which He would build His church.
Jesus requires passion, is the embodiment of Passion, settles for nothing less than passion.
‘So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.’ Revelation 3:16 ESV
Try, even if you fail a thousand times. Embrace your passion, for God’s sake. Don’t dabble.