OK, it didn’t really go like that. Actually my former boss and I both thanked each other and went our separate ways with mutual respect and gratitude. In November I wrote that my company announced it would close its doors in 2018. It wasn’t a huge surprise when my position was eliminated a couple of weeks ago.
I was prepared! List of projects to keep me busy while I look for a new position. Check! Update resume. Check! Adjust the budget. Check! Contact former colleagues, employers, recruiters. Check! Schedule lunches with old co-workers. Check! Take a nap. Check!
Then yesterday something was off. Perfectly good job opportunities had gone by all week, without so much as a call-back or reply to email. Maybe my resume was in invisible ink? I dunno.
So I relied on one of my strengths: I threw a pity party. It was just a small gathering of the usual suspects: Anxiety, Fear, Despair and me. Back in the old days, we got together all the time but I haven’t seen some of them in ages. Now I remember why.
Recently I wrote about sharing life with best friends; I shared all of this with one of mine near the end of the day. Why wait until the end of the day? Because I’m a knucklehead and I like to wallow alone in misery every once in a while. K? Judge not, the book says. 🙂
My friend gave supportive, encouraging, and enlightening insights. The day ended with a whimper. I think it came from me. I know God is steadfast, unchanging, on my side, and loves me every second no matter what I’m doing or going through. So I talked to Him about it right about the time Sleep Mode kicked in.
This morning I opened one of my devotionals and read,
“All you have to do is believe. There is no power on earth that can withstand My will. Your faith and My power are the only two essentials. If someone’s petty opposition of you still remains, it is only because I choose to let it stand between you and what would be a mistake for you.” God Calling, February 3rd
Oh? Oh. Oh!
It never crossed my mind those “perfectly good job opportunities” might be a mistake for me.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:11-13
When my goals do not line up with God’s goals for me, that – by definition – would be a mistake for me.