Long-time readers of this blog already have some idea about my pre-Jesus life. It wasn’t pretty. When I look back, I have a sense of bewilderment about how far I had gone in my lost-ness. It wasn’t all bad, of course. But what was bad, was really bad.
Now when I look back over the years since I met Jesus, I am just as bewildered but in a far more pleasant way. I understand what happened but it is a real challenge to explain how my life was turned around, because so much of that was done by God, not me. As Neil The Walking Concordance calls it, I was – at best – co-laboring with God. And God did all the heavy lifting.
The other night Neil pointed at a sunset out the window. When I turned to look, I was struck again with bewilderment. How does He do that? It was magnificent! Easily the most beautiful thing I’d seen in days. It is symbolic for me… a beautiful and animated picture, coming late in the day.
When I read the stories of Jesus healing the sick, lame, blind, leprous, I can find myself sprinting right by to the next story. But if I stop and consider that His power for each of them was life-changing, I find myself awed all over again. And reminded of His power in my healing, in my daily life.
How great Thou art, indeed!
Watching a recent documentary about space exploration and an unusual situation with solar flares, the narrator of the show described the rocket scientists’ anticipated effect of the solar flares in dramatic terms. It was going to be very troublesome for citizens of Earth. Yet none of the undesirable effects they predicted actually happened. They were… bewildered. Quite a bit of time and analysis had to be exhausted before they could even theorize why things turned out differently (and better).
All around us are examples of the power and mercy of the Father. If I slow down long enough to look, I will be pleasantly surprised. And bewildered.
I still don’t understand how dead seeds become living plants, or how monkeys learn to use rocks as hammers, or why penguins occasionally turn to a life of crime. And, frankly, I don’t think I want to know all the answers. I enjoy being bewildered by God.
In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.
And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. And God saw that the light was good. And God separated the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness he called Night. And there was evening and there was morning, the first day. Genesis 1:1-5